the reason male comic book fans work themselves into a frenzied rage over “fake geek girls" is because they think they can’t get a girlfriend because of their love for comic books (a.k.a nerdiness). if they accept that geek girls genuinely love comic books, then they’re left with the cold harsh reality that it’s not their nerdiness that makes them unattractive to women, but the fact that they are misogynistic condescending dickbags who need to be avoided AT ALL COSTS
I get the luxury of being stuck with myself and quiet thoughts working this shift especially on nights when we’re not busy at the hospital. Nights like tonight. Its allowed me the opportunity to do so much self reflection this past year and especially within these past two months. Lots of anxieties come and pass worries about the future but there was one thing that I knew I wanted in that future and that was you.
You are a constant, my north star to guide me and to remind me that no matter what came to pass it’d be okay because we’d have each other and that it was enough.
Now to think that I might lose you kills me. To which it becomes exponentially amplified by the fact that it’s my own doing makes it all the worse.
Im dying here at the thought and ive never felt more helpless and depressed.
I should be so much better than this. The fuck is wrong with you jay jay.